In Coffee Spoons

Strike that.

I am still tired as all hell.

Cymbalta does not seem to be working.

But it's hard to tell. If I try and pay attention, I get worried that I'm overanalyzing every emotion and blowing things out of proportion. If I don't pay attention, I get worried that I'm coasting on a placebo. I guess if I ever find a really perfect combination of meds, it'll prove itself by getting me to stop worrying about whether or not it works.

I'm not depressed. I'm not as tired, either. But the OCD is bad like it hasn't been in some time. Which is strange, because the Lamictal is supposed to be for the OCD and the Prozac for the depression. Can Cymbalta just completely cancel out the effects of another med? I hope not.

I'm supposed to see Dr. V. in...three weeks, I think. So I'll stick with it and see how I'm doing by then.

Blurgh.

Got my "why am I so freaking tired" lab tests back.

Dr. V: We test for leukemia, anemia. None of these.

Me: I am glad I do not have any emias.

Dr. V: No, no emias.

The thyroid test came back fine, because the last doctor I saw was an idiot. (Dr. V was out of town.) I mean, she saw me *once*, did *one* thyroid test, and just handed me a bottle of Synthroid? Um, no.

Why am I tired? Nobody knows! I'm not surprised. This is the third or fourth time in the past couple of years that I've gone to the doctor complaining of fatigue, and the third or fourth time that they've done a big workup of tests and not found anything and gone "huh".

Dr. V. thinks it might be a physical symptom of my depression, so he's switching me from Prozac to Cymbalta. Since I was concerned that the Prozac had stopped working, I'm definitely willing to give it a try.

If I'm not perky in four weeks, he wants to test me for Chronic Epstein-Barr.

Hey Ashley, would you like a bottle of Synthroid?

The Bunny Rabbit Who Went Up A Hill And Came Down Laden With Bleak Despair

by Megan

Once upon a time there was a bunny.

He didn't do anything, because ultimately all our actions are meaningless.

The end.

Yup.